Today I got an inquiry from a novice, which reminded me that even though someone has a fetish that makes them a dangerous fucking idiot, perhaps they are not fully aware they are being a dangerous fucking idiot. Hence, this exchange:
From "D" (Name has been changed to protect the stupid):
Dear Mistress Veronica,
I wanted to know your availability for a scissor session where you ignore tap outs, and try to make me pass out in them. A lot of women have tried, and they have failed, and I find that kind of session enjoyable, I hope you do as well. I encourage you to please go after the arteries. :P
Isn't it funny he described the women as having "failed"? Ha ha! Idiot. My response:
Your fetish is very dangerous, and frankly, I do not blame the women you sessioned with who "failed". There is no way of knowing whether someone is passed out or in fact really in need of medical assistance, hence, no sane Domme will want that issue on their conscience (or their dungeon floor). I suggest you try to satisfy yourself in the lifestyle community and find someone who really cares about you and is willing to go to that extreme.
Since you are a beginner, it is possible that you are experiencing "sub drop" after your sessions, which is not a function of how well it went, but a cognitive dissonance from what you are imagining your "perfect" session to be and what is actually really consensually available from another person who is not a sociopath.
P.S. By "lifestyle community" I mean find an experienced Domme by way of The Eulenspiegel Society or another organization which promotes RACK (Risk-Aware Consensual Kink) or SSC (Safe, Sane, Consensual) play.
Anyway, I'm sure he's a nice enough person/dumb-ass.